I started a new wip a couple weeks ago and things are finally starting to fall into place. The outline is still in a constant state of flux- scenes added and deleted, moved around or presented in ways I hadn’t thought about before I arrived at that section but I've definitely found my groove.
Even though the fun has just begun, there are still doubts. I’ll be writing and then take a step back and think ‘How will other people see this?’. Because, yes, eventually someone else will probably read my work, especially if (not when) in the end I think it might be worth querying agents with. (Yes, I think books are worth writing even if they AREN'T meant for querying and there's no market for them.)
When the doubt comes in, I start second guessing everything- my plot, storyline, voice etc. ‘Is it too outrageous?’ ‘Should I really use a swear word there?’ ‘Will this story line hold their attention?’
And while it’s a good idea to at least give a little consideration to the future reader and think your story though, as to the rest of it- I say ‘Who cares???!!’
The important things happening with a first draft in my opinion are:
I’m writing! After each project, there’s a lull after I start querying. Try as I might, I couldn’t bring myself to write more than a few pages since November. So being in the midst of another wip feels fantastic! I’m doing what I love and honing my craft and I plan to adapt all the great things I’ve learned since my last project.
I like my story, dammit! One of the biggest reasons I started writing was so that I could live the story and experiences I wanted to. I have total control of where this is going and what happens and it’s almost as good as reading a book. At this point in the process, I shouldn’t give a damn what anyone else thinks. I’m writing for me, for my enjoyment, and my enjoyment only. If when I finish, I think there could be interest from people in the publishing industry- that’s when I’ll take a deeper look at my work and try and see it through different eyes. Not before.
I find that worrying about future readers or the marketability of my story only stifles the creativity, so whenever the doubt starts creeping in, I might pause- But eventually I think ‘who cares?!’ and push through it, taking the story where I want with renewed determination.
What about you? Do you take a look at marketability and bounce ideas off others before you start a story, afraid to waste time writing something that won't interest? Or do you barrel full steam ahead because this particular story is speaking to you, even if you're not completely sure you'll try and get it published?