Beta feedback is slowly seeping in and I’m revising my MS accordingly. My query letter is set and ready to go. I assume in another week or two, I should be almost ready to query.
So why am I not excited?
In the past, I couldn’t wait to get to the part of the process where I could finally start querying. I’d be all pumped about my book and in a rush to get it out there.
But this time I feel kind of like Linus in It’s The Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown. I’ll mail my letter to The Great Agent, like I do every year and sit out in the middle of a field, waiting for him to pick my pumpkin patch as being the most sincere. Family and friends don't understand why I haven't given up already. If it hasn't happened yet, it's not going to. I’ve done all this before. And every year my pumpkin patch gets passed over. But I can't get over the hope that The Great Agent really does exist.
Unlike Linus, I guess you could say I’m having trouble getting excited about the experience this time around. And yet, no matter how much I’m not looking forward to the night spent out in the cold, just waiting and hoping- I know I’ll write that letter and sit out anyway. Because you just never know…this year could be the year!